MY KARMA

It all started when i found love in the wrong place, a very beautiful mistake my selfish heart lead me into making.
         Yes oftentimes the heart does things for reasons that reason doesn't even understand.  There are so many questions i need answers to :

1) Can anyone take me back to where I
started?
2) how the hell did i find myself in this messy hurt?
3) why do i feel as though something that isn't mine is missing?
3) how do i go back in time and change it all?

I find myself talking to me alone in the middle of the night for a damm mistake my heart made. Yes that wasn't me.
     How the hell can I lose someone who wasn't mine in the first place?

The answer isn't that simple but do we all know that one of us in all of this is hurting bitterly ?
Did I lose self confidence?

Oh , somewhere deep inside my heart of hearts i miss someone but life is not balanced and this unjustified rules of life i must obey.  I should never have trusted my heart because since it's conscious advent, it has never made a right decision. It has never thought of anyone else or put anything into consideration except it's selfish desires and wants.

Do i love you?  YES
Do i miss you?  YES
Is it Over?          YES
Does it hurt?     YES

Between us , there is no victim, no vanquish. It's just me, the irreplaceable you, my pain and my KARMA. This hurt is enough KARMA for me.